I used to be so envious of women who posted their anxiety over beta numbers and ultrasounds. To even get to the place where those were my worries seemed so far-fetched and hard to imagine. A positive pregnancy test? A confirmation beta? Oh, how I longed to be there!
Well, I'm here now and no less anxious than I was before. How is this possible? Will I ever "relax" and enjoy this whole being pregnant thing?
Beta came in today at 209.
While that's a solid number for a first beta, at 18dpo I was expecting something higher. Betabase records a median beta at this stage as 400+. I know that's just a middle number, and that successful pregnancies fall on either side of that number. But a part of me was really hoping to hit at least 400 today for a little reassurance that, yes, everything is fine. The RE himself called me with the numbers, and seemed okay with them. He said we're likely looking at a singleton, which of course I interpreted as "you're numbers are low." What's important, of course, is whether or not they double by Wednesday.
Two more anxiety-filled days, with no work to distract me and help pass the time. (Hold back, ladies, I know how whiny that sounded and I want to slap myself.)
Some reassurance from my bloggy friends would be greatly appreciated.
Monday, December 28, 2009
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My first beta was a 52 and I'm sitting here holding a happy, healthy four month old baby girl. You are fine! Congrats!
ReplyDeleteYou'll be fine. Stay positive!
ReplyDeleteHere are my beta's if they make you feel any better (I TOTALLY understand your rationale ... when I got my first IVF BFP earlier in the month I NEVER thought I'd be one of those people obsessing for beta's and ultrasounds)
ReplyDelete14dpo - 126
16dpo - 234
I didn't even have the 48 hr. doubling time for my thrid beta but here I am, at 7 weeks 5 days, and I've seen the little heartbeat twice.
I think you're fine! I know, the wait is tortoure. It supposedly gets better after the first trimester ... I'll wait here with you though, and feel free to whine away! It's a scary time, but you are pregnant girl!
Even if it was 550 you would still be worried! All you can do is take care of yourself. I know it's hard to wait. Trust me...I've been there. My first beta with my baby was 48. And now she's 4 months old. Try to breathe and enjoy every moment...
ReplyDelete209 sounds like a very reasonable number. I know it will be hard to keep yourself distracted, but hang in there. Wednesday will be here before you know it!
ReplyDeleteHugs
209 sounds great! Nancy over at The New Life of Nancy started with a beta of about 30 and has a wonderful son now.
ReplyDeleteI think 209 is great! I know it's impossible not to worry, but it will be okay! Hang in there!
ReplyDelete209 is a wonderful beta number. The worrying on this side of things is a little different than the 2ww. No matter what the number is, you would be worried. Hang in there! I kept taking HPTs just to be sure it was real. I also wanted to see what a positive test looked like!
ReplyDeleteIt never ends, does it? I would take all the reassurances above to heart. You have been extremely affected by your experiences with IF (as have we all). I think your reaction is really normal. If I knew more about betas (I never got to that stage, myself) I'm sure I'd be telling you the same. I hope the time between now and Wednesday flies.
ReplyDeleteHang in there! It's normal to feel such anxiety and to try and overanalyze any data point. But, you really can't do a thing. I just feel that everything is going to go well for you!
ReplyDeleteI don't know anything about betas but it sounds like you're doing just fine!!! I think it's perfectly normal for a mom to be nervous about every milestone!! Hang in there hun!
ReplyDelete209 sounds like a great number. I hope the next test will allay some of your fears. Until then I hope you can find some things to keep you busy.
ReplyDeleteI agree with the others, 209 at 18DPO sounds good to me and no matter what the number you'd be worried - it's the hangover from years of trying to get to this point.
ReplyDeleteTry not to freak out too much, I know the fear sits on your shoulder and whispers all the "what if's" but just concentrate on each little milestone and celebrating getting there. Today, right now you're pregnant - how awesome is that?
Looking forward to reading the next set of numbers and sending loads of positivity your way.