Show And Tell: My New Favorite Song

I first heard this on Friday, as I was driving to the RE for our latest negative beta. It seemed so particularly fitting; I knew immediately that I wanted to share it with you, my fellow warriors. It speaks to so many aspects of IF and the hope that endures -- whatever your faith. And don't worry -- the link isn't broken. There is no video; just a beautiful, heart-wrenching song that makes me cry whenever I hear it.



Although it doesn't do it justice (you really need to hear it!), I wanted to reprint the lyrics for the part that spoke the most to me.

You would think only so much can go wrong
Calamity only strikes once
And you assume that this one has suffered her share
Life will be kinder from here

Sometimes the sun stays hidden for years
Sometimes the sky rains night after night
When will it clear
But our hope endures the worst of conditions
It's more than our optimism
Let the earth quake
Our hope is unchanged

This has been my experience with IF in a nutshell. There are some women who have endured so many tragedies, tragedies I have never experienced and pray I will never have to. In a fair, just world, that would be enough. These women would then be blessed with successful pregnancies, with healthy living children, with the pain and pleasure of parenthood.

Unfortunately, as we all know, this isn't always the case. So often there are repeated losses, there are years and years of negative betas, of cancelled treatments. IF always lingers longer than we ever imagined it would.

And yet, we keep going. We keep shooting up meds, transferring embroyos, filling out adoption paperwork. We keep hoping, we keep praying, we keep believing that someday, somehow, our dreams will come to fruition. Through the very worst of conditions, we endure.

To all of my sisters out there, I dedicate this song to you. You have inspired me, and I thank you from the very bottom of my heart.

To see what the rest of the class is showing, click on over to Mel's blog.