Me, being me, could not let things go for long. After another Silent Sunday, I decided to broach things with Mo. It went -- well, extremely shitty at first (we both yelled, defenses were high), but eventually I, at least, was able to express how I felt.
Which is to say to make clear how very confused and conflicted I am, how irresolute. How fuzzy everything looks right now. How it seems as if even God has stopped listening.
As if IF wasn't enough for one couple to have to handle. We've been smacked with a double-whammy and, frankly, the unfairness of it all just PISSES ME OFF.
Monday, April 27, 2009
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I have no words that will help. Just wanted to say that I read your post, I feel your frustration, and I'm so sorry.
ReplyDeleteMo...I don't know what to say. I am sorry that this has moved in on your life, and I so hope and pray you will find the strength and resolve to make it through.
ReplyDeleteI have been at a similar crossroads with my DH several years ago (we didn't speak, the tension was nearly unbearable, we had some issues that nearly ended us) and even though I don't know the specifics of your situation, reading your frustration just makes me remember it all over again.
I am here, if you need me.
I'm glad you were able to express how you are feeling and I hope he was able to hear it. {{{Hugs}}}
ReplyDeleteAt least you were able to open the lines of communication. While it may not have yet provided a solution, it is the first step towards one. I'm so sorry you are dealing with this. ((HUGS))
ReplyDeleteI've got nothing meaningful for you...just wanted you to know that I'm here, along with lots of other folks...offering my love and support. I believe you will get through this, though you may not see how at the moment. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this now, though.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad that you were able to express your feelings. Today's bit of a**vice, if both of you feel that you are not getting to express your feelings/frustrations, what about each of you writing a letter to the other and either reading it aloud or letting the other read it (no comments from the other allowed). It often helps to get your feelings expressed and it's easier to articulate your feelings in a letter than in a heated discussion.
ReplyDeleteWishing you both peace.
(((HUGS)))
ReplyDeleteDon't know what else to say.
ICLW