That's how I feel today. The reasons are myriad, and I don't really feel like going into them right now. Suffice it to say that having people do things according to THEIR schedule (as opposed to mine) is irritating to say the least. Does this make me a control freak? Perhaps. We've already established codependent tendencies, so that's not really a surprise.
The difference today is not how I am feeling, but how I am handling it. I'm taking a minute to acknowledge that I'm frustrated, then I'm finding something else to do. I'm blogging, I'm reading, I'm cleaning the kitchen.
Instead of stewing, I'm trying to keep moving. So even if the feelings are familiar, the reaction that I'm choosing is different. That's not to say that I'm suppressing my feelings, because we all know how well that works. I'm not trying to do anything with my frustration except acknowledge that it's there. But I am also not erupting, I'm not fixing anything, and I'm not forcing the issue.
Baby steps here, people.
Monday, June 29, 2009
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ReplyDeleteThe greatest journeys start with a single step. Gotta start somewhere.
ReplyDeleteThere is some release to simply acknowledging your feelings. It can make you feel better in some ways.
I guess that makes me co-dependent with control issues too. Except I can't hold things in for long. Ever. Don't think I ever will.
ReplyDeleteOh, Jo. I'm just getting caught up with your last few posts and I'm frustrated along with you. I so want to 'fix' it all for you, make Mo grow up or make him move out. I suppose that's the codependent in me. :) But, I know I really can't make your decisions.
ReplyDeleteAs far as going out all the time (or much of the time) is concerned, I guess if both people are OK with that it's fine. But, in your situation only one person is OK with it. And that sucks. I wouldn't be OK with it. And, I wonder if having a baby would get Mo to stay home. I just don't know. I've seen it go both ways.
Like I said, I'm frustrated right along with you. I'm sorry I can't provide answers and I'm trying to hold my tongue, knowing that this is your life and understanding that Mo's a good man behaving badly. That's what makes it so hard, isn't it? If Mo were simply a complete loser, your decision would be quite easy. :)
I'm hoping and praying that God gives you a bit more guidance on these difficult decisions.
Peace.
(((jo)))
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry, but so proud.