The spotting. It started brown, two days ago. Very, very faint.
Yesterday it turned pink.
Today, it's red.
It's still very, very light -- nothing on a liner, just when I wipe.
But, no mistaking it, this morning, it's red.
And I've been cramping, fairly consistently, since yesterday.
I know that there is nothing that can be done. Not only is it New Year's Day, and everyone is sleeping off last night, but then its the weekend. No one will be in at Dr. Optimistic's until Monday.
I could go to the ER, but it's not severe enough for that yet. And really, what are they going to do? An ultrasound now may not show a damn thing. I'm only 5w1d, and my hCG was only 460 two days ago. It's not likely hit 1,000 yet, when they can visualize a sac.
And so I wait.
And I Google.
And I have to tell you, as many stories as reassure me that some spotting/cramping is normal in early pregnancy, there are just as many that end in loss.
And, as everyone knows, brown and pink are one thing.
Red is never, ever a good sign.
Thanks a lot, 2010.
Friday, January 1, 2010
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Oh my dear. Hang in there. Rest. Stop wiping. Stop googling. Thinking of you and praying as hard as I can. Gah. I wish there was more I could offer.
ReplyDeleteHang in there. I know how incredibly tough this can be. You could go to the ER but you're right, it's too early to see anything.
ReplyDeleteI know how hard this must be for you. Just try to stop googling and rest.
(((HUGS)))
I say don't panic. I had red spotting that stopped within 24 hours. Everything turned out fine at that point. Hugs!!
ReplyDeleteI'm guessing this won't make you feel better, but the same thing happened to me. Two days of brown discharge followed by two evenings of red spotting, with even enough to drip into the toilet at one point. We went to the emergency room. In retrospect, we probably shouldn't have because it was stressful and took hours and hours and they wouldn't feed me and I was starving because we skipped dinner. We were at 7 weeks and they eventually did an ultrasound and all was well. Never found out what caused the spotting. And I was having plenty of cramping too from the progesterone.
ReplyDeleteJust to say - you really never know what's going to happen, no matter what you google. And I hope the absolute best for you.
Is there a 24-hour nurse or urgent care line you can call that's affiliated with your hospital or insurance?
I had red blood and everything was fine, no cause. My doctor actually said it would be weird for an IVF patient not to bleed in early pregnancy.
ReplyDeleteI'm keeping my fingers crossed for you!
Hang in there, hon. Red can be normal, too, although certainly scary as hell. Stay horizontal, try and distract yourself with movies, and stop Googling! Dr. Google never has anything good to say.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you.
Ugh, I'm sure that must be terrifying. Murgdan saw Red at 5 1/2 weeks. See the link below. After that, I'm with Barefoot - No more google. (Easier said than done, I know...)
ReplyDeleteThinking of you. Praying for you.
http://murgdan.blogspot.com/2009/09/breathing-again.html
Hugs.
Thinking about you. Try not to panic. And try to not Google, if it's possible.
ReplyDeleteMy only suggestion is that if the red shows up right when you have just peed perhaps you have a bladder infection, which can also cause some traces of blood to be seen, so if you notice that you feel unwell and have to pee more frequently you may want to run to an urgent care place and pee in a cup just to be on the safe side. (I always try to think outside the box!)
ReplyDeleteI hope it turns out to be nothing.
ReplyDeleteI have no suggestions but want to let you know I am thinking of you and praying for you. (hugs). Em
ReplyDeletePraying hard for you Jo!
ReplyDeleteI know red is super scary, but it seems like almost everyone whose blog I follow have had some red spotting and not one person has miscarried. You are going to be OK. It is normal. If it was the worst, there would be waaaayyy more than a little red when you wipe. Are you doing progesterone suppositories? I am and use a plastic applicator and sometimes I bang my cervix and right now our cervix's are engorged in blood and easily bleed. No big deal. You are so fine. (But I'd be freaking out too...) XX
ReplyDeleteOh no! Keep your head up! Praying and hoping for the best!
ReplyDeleteKeeping you in my thoughts and prayers!
ReplyDeleteHolding you in my heart.
ReplyDeleteI have a friend, who got pregnant after an IUI. She started bleeding at 5 weeks. Red and a lot. Soaking pads after pads as she never did before. Scared out of her mind, she went to ER. They saw nothing, told her she might miscarry and sent her home. She spent one week in bed. The next she went to the doctor. Saw the heartbeat. She is due this February.
ReplyDeleteNo one knows why this happened. No one knows why so much blood.
I had a hematoma a bit later than you, at 6 weeks. Started brown, got red and scared the hell out of me. I saw the hematoma on the monitor at the u/s, but I couldn't care less, because I was fascinated by the flickering heartbeat that stole my heart. It lasted a week. Now I am 8 weeks. I am not out of the woods. But I try to distract my attention with other things, like reading blogs and playing silly computer games.
Last time I was pregnant, I had absolutely no bleeding at all. Only that I lost that baby.
So, does bleeding means miscarriage? Not always. Try to keep yourself on the positive side and focus on the next appointment. You are not out of the game yet. I pray you remain in the game for the next 8 months or so.
No, red is not a good sign. But all hope is not lost. It could mean something or not...and it is torture. Is your RE checking progesterone levels? If that drops/is too low you can bleed. Or, like me, you could have a blood clot. I gushed at 6 weeks 1 day and just knew I lost the baby. But it was a clot and I bled for weeks...and now I have a 4 month old baby girl.
ReplyDeleteI will not tell you to stay positive...you have to go through the emotions that help you survive. I hope and pray that this is a good outcome for you. I know it sucks so bad. I"m sorry you are going through this....fingers crossed for you and your baby.
Keeping fingers crossed, and hoping that everything will be fine, as it seems many bloggers have gone through the same with without it meaning anything bad.
ReplyDeleteTry to rest as much as you can. Could be so many benign things.
Abiding with you.
ReplyDeleteThanks for pointing out your post to me, Jo. You and I are exactly in the same position, it seems, both in terms of pregnancy and predicament. I'm hanging in there too, waiting for Monday before I can get to my GP's office (my RE is in another city).
ReplyDeleteI won't panic, if you won't!