Thursday, August 4, 2011

Hooray! It's....Negative?

The Official Pee-A-Thon of 2011 has begun!  For those of you who are new around these parts, I'm not one of those "wait and see" types who dutifully follows doctor's instructions and waits for beta results.  I pee on things, often daily, and analyze them way more than is probably healthy.

That being said, I think I've been VERY patient in waiting to start POAS until today, approximately 2dp5dt.  This is a full 9 days after the trigger shot, ya'll!  My reasoning (as convoluted as it may be) was that I WANT to see that negative, so that I'm 100% positive that a BFP (should it decide to show itself) is for real.  However, I wasn't too keen on seeing that false positive caused by the HCG shot.  In the past, we've used Ovid.rel to trigger, and I've always tested negative by 7 days post trigger.  I, personally, think the doctors are WAY too overly-cautious when telling us to wait 14 whole days to make sure it's out of your system.  Every website I read has said that it takes about 10 days to rid your body of the 10,000 IU of HCG.  So, I figured I'd give it ten days.

I almost made it, but as soon as we got home, those internet cheapies just started calling my name.  I decided it wouldn't hurt to take just ONE (isn't that how all addictions are fed?), and was tickled pink to see that it was, indeed, starkly negative.  (Note: I will NOT have the same reaction in a week, Universe, so don't go getting any ideas).

And then I did something I shouldn't.  Fellow POAS addicts have probably been here before.  Upon visiting the bathroom again an hour or so later, I dug the stick out for another, closer, analysis.  And, lo and behold, a VERY faint evaporation line was there.

Well, shit.

I know that you should never look at a pee stick past that ten minute window, for this reason exactly. I also know that any remaining HCG in my body (no matter how faint) is from trigger, and not from any potential pregnancies a-brewin'.  So, in all actuality, this really is no big deal.  By tomorrow, that evap line should be gone and when I test again (because you know I will), my negative should be signed, sealed, and delivered.  Wham, bam, thankyouma'am.

Now my only dilemma is this: once the negative is clearly established, how long do I hold out before testing for realz?  I'm down to two internet cheapies (one, after tomorrow) and two older-than-dirt FRER's (which never, ever read positive for me before 14dpo).  It's really too late to order any more online, so if I start testing TOO early, I'll have to invest in a drugstore brand (in case you're wondering, I've always tested positive first on Equate.)  I'm thinking I'll just have to bite the bullet, because I doubt I can hold out any longer than Sunday, even though I figure that Tuesday (12dpo, 7dp5dt) will be the earliest I will see anything remotely hopeful.  (And if you're still reading this, you probably need as much counseling as I do).

What about you?  Are you a pee-aholic, or do you prefer to wait to hear the official news?  What's your reasoning for doing so?  And would you ever consider crossing over to the "other" side?

14 comments:

  1. I'm a pee-a-holic! I can do you one better... I don't throw the negative stick out. I have a spot on the counter that I collect sticks, day by day. That way I can go back and look at them long after I'm not supposed to look at them.

    I'm looking forward to hearing about your confirmation negative... and then your for realz BFP!!!

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  2. I think I bought the pack of 25, possibly 50 cheapies. And yes, I intend to use them all for the next attempt.

    Do you put a flashlight on them too, just to make sure that you're not missing any hint of line due to inferior lighting?

    Anyone? Just me then?

    Fine. I've been called crazy for lesser things.

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  3. First off, I'll say that I've never been much of a one for POAS. I really, really hate seeing negatives.

    That said, for our recent DE IVF cycle, my husband begged me to POAS on the evening of 5dp5dt. The test was a BFN, totally stark white space where the second line should be.

    When I tested first thing in the morning at 7dp5dt, I got my first (faint) positive test. And my first beta hCG level at 11dp5dt was 546, and I'm pregnant with twins.

    The point in my relating this POAS saga is to say that, based on my experience, I'd be really surprised to see you get a positive test before 7dp5dt even if you're pregnant. I mean, my first beta was high, as would be expected with twins, and it still took that long just to see a faint second line on an HPT. (And yes, I used the sensitive "early result" kind of HPT.)

    Just my $0.02. :-)

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  4. I usually test 7dpo to be sure the trigger is out, too. But other than that, I'm not really a POAS pusher. lol I usually start getting the urge around 12dpo, though, and I'll have to force myself to wait. I try to wait until as close to 14dpo as I can. One time my period actually arrived while the test was developing! Talk about cruel and unusual punishment!

    Anyway, I have high hopes for you this cycle. I have been reading all your posts, and I'm sorry I don't comment. : (

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  5. I'm firmly in the non POAS camp with POAS tendencies. I spend all day talking myself out of it and wanting desperately to rush home and pee. Then, in the morning, I make myself use the bathroom before that part of my brain has woken up enough to say "HEY that's FMU!!! FMU people!!! What the hell are you doing letting that go down the drain?!"

    I have been very tempted to test out trigger shots in the past, though.

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  6. No, I never POAS. A test for me would never be positive until after my beta, anyway. My first beta with the twins was only a 101, and with my daughter it was only 40. Then those numbers never doubled properly, either. If I'm going to go through the total mind f*ck that is non doubling betas and torture until ultrasound anyway, why bother to start early?

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  7. Hello, my name is E and Im a POAS a holic. I have no idea why I keep doing this to myself. With our last IVF, I POAS 2 days after ER just to make sure when I did get a neg, it was a true neg. What am I thinking? Oh wait it gets better... once I see the neg... I keep peeing!!!! Just to make sure it really is neg and then hopes of being able to see the faintest of the faintest of BFP if we were so luck. Well.. then you know the cycle continues. Once I say out first BFP... I had to make sure it was real... needless to say many, many, many sticks later (not the internet cheapies like the bundle I just bought) and tons of money later. I would have the same results than if I just waiting on my beta. Something happened to me once being diagnosed as an official infertile.

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  8. Do you have a Dollar Tree near you? You have to use a dropper, but you can do a ton of them at $1 each. :)

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  9. I always say I'll hold out, but I always end up POAS'ing obsessively. Next time, I'll just give in to the urge. Good luck and I hope to see that BFP!

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  10. First of all, i love this post! I can hear the joy and excitement in every word!

    With our first transfer I POAS the day before my beta and it was negative. The second time around I thought it would be easier if I just waited for my beta. I was totally wrong! Hearing the nurse say sorry it didn't work was the worst. I wish I had been more prepared. Next time around I will for sure POAS before my beta. Oh yes, and I too would recommend the $.99 store for pee sticks. That was you can pee all you want and not waste a ton of $$.

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  11. My general policy is to forget when I'm supposed to get my period in the first place, so that I am not even tempted to POAS. Obviously cycling would make this impossible, and if I were shoes I am afraid my sanity would be forfeit for life long before the 2ww was up.

    "And if you're still reading this, you probably need as much counseling as I do" - more. Much, much more :).

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  12. How did "if I were in your shoes" become "if I were shoes"? I like shoes, but if I were (am?) shoes, I think it's past time to worry about the loss of my sanity.

    Sigh.

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  13. I am a total POAS-aholic!!! In the past 10 months, I have not POAS maybe 2 months. I just can't help myself! I bought a 50-pk of internet cheapies and they have lasted for a long time! I do hcg injections 4 times after ovulation (2000 iu each), so I MUST test it out every cycle!! The only bad thing is that I still get a positive the same day as AF...so it's still a crap shoot. Crossing my fingers that you can hold out another day or two...just because!

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  14. Now that I have read all the comments, I'm thinking that I might consider peeing on ONE stick on the morning of the 13th. My clinic is notorious for taking their own sweet time w the phone calls. Last time I was tortured until almost 4:30! It sucked. If a pee stick will lessen that phone call anxiety it might be worth doing.

    You guys are evil ;) C'mon...you know you want to. Everybody's doing it...

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