We come together when....opposites attract!
Ok, so I'm totally dating myself, but the truth is, I have ALWAYS thought that this song is a perfect description for Mo and me. But that's really not what I wanted to write about today. I really just wanted to kvetch for a moment (again!) about how many freakin' YEARS it took for my husband to be diagnosed with a testosterone-deficiency. Aside from our fertility woes, he has been beleaguered with extreme fatigue, mood swings, depression, the list goes on and on. And then, out of the blue, we are handed this Magic Cream and WOW!!! The man I started dating a decade ago is back! I am not exaggerating when I say he was like a new man. Instead of sleeping the days away, we got up and got out. We laughed. We had sex. A lot of sex. Good sex. In a matter of weeks, that cream did more to restore our marriage than any couples therapy or fertility treatment ever did. Mo felt vibrant, he felt happy -- and that made all the difference in the world!
And then. Dr. Expert, in his wisdom, told Mo to stop. And Mo did. Because the only thing he wants more than to feel better is he chance to be a father. And he is willing to suffer through whatever he has to suffer through if it will give him that shot. But man, it has been so deflating to watch him. Within days, his energy level plummeted. He sleeps most of the day -- and the night. He doesn't want to go anywhere, or do anything. We haven't had sex in over a week. I can actually SEE how awful he feels, and I feel so. damn. helpless.
He has three more weeks before his bloodwork appointment, and several days to wait for results. I am hoping that everything will be in by the time I go back for surgery, so that Dr. E. will give him the Clomid scrip then. I know that once he does, it won't be long before Mo is feeling better. And in the end, the chance to have a child of our own is totally worth it. I just hate watching my husband disappear in the meantime.
Friday, July 20, 2012
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Jo - just a thought - could Mo go off the meds long enough to get his sperm straightened out...freeze a bunch...and then go back on? Must be so tough for both of you to see this change and then have to go back to the way things were.
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We may do that, but the hope is that the Clomid will do the same thing. By tricking his brain into creating more LH and FSH, he should also then start producing more testosterone and feel better.
DeleteWe are in the same boat - resorted to donor sperm and now holding our 12-week old. But would live the name of that cream. I'd love to have the old Mr Jem back.
ReplyDeleteAndrogel was what he was prescribed originally. It worked within days, and the change was remarkable. Definitely think about having Mr. Jem checked for low-t.... The link between it and MFI is pretty clear, according to the research I've done.
DeleteAttar he does have low testosterone. He's been treated with a new gel that goes on his underarms. The first month on it was amazing - high energy, sex drive, etc. but then we got pregnant (with donor sperm) and all the positive stuff went away even tho he was still taking it. Boo. We go see his doc tomorrow.
DeleteThat is really hard. Yes the prospect of being a farther is totally worth it, but it is still hard. Hang in there.
ReplyDeleteUgh, how difficult to have to watch. Hoping so so much that things will be able to turn around soon.
ReplyDeletewow, this is so interesting, although I imagine hard to go thru first and second hand. I totally agree with MO, maybe this is something you can revisit and he can go back on given that there is such a huge difference in his mood. I am hopeful though b/c it sounds like you guys have uncovered some huge pieces of the puzzle here.
ReplyDeleteyou are always on my mind
xoxox
So sorry you are both going through this. Ugh! But I am hoping the clomid helps!
ReplyDeleteThat's sad. Of course, all of us have been through major, miserable, personality-altering drug regimens for this stuff, so a temporary setback is, well, par for the course. But not acceptable for years and years! I really want my DH tested for low testosterone. I am so sure his is low! But he refuses :(. (Any brilliant ideas about how to pitch the idea to him???) Meanwhile - lucky you, about to get your husband back!
ReplyDeleteI saw the same thing happen with my husband. I'm so sorry it took so long for Mo to get a diagnosis and treatment. I know it's hard to watch him have such a hard time, but the Clomid should help--maybe not as quickly as the Androgel, but it will get better.
ReplyDeleteWhat a double-edged sword. I hope that the next few weeks go by quickly. (((HUGS)))
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