I know I've left many of you hanging, wondering, pondering , perhaps even speculating aloud to your spouse "What in the world happened to old Jo?"
Okay, so maybe I'm reaching a little. But, whether you are just mildly curious or if you've spent sleepless nights waiting for an answer, well, I'm sorry to tell you -- there's just not one forthcoming.
At least not right now.
You see, it's not my story to tell.
Let me back up.
I'm fine. I am not physically hurt, nor have I been at any point. Mo is fine, too, in all the senses that count, in that he is not in any mortal danger, either. We both still have our jobs, our house, our wonderfully sweet and innocently naive fur-babies.
And yet. Though we are both fine, neither one of us is fine at all. Not really.
This is where it gets tricky, where the words stop coming, where I sit and type something, re-read it, delete it. Try again. And again. How can I explain what's happening, and how I'm coping, without violating the privacy of the man I love?
How do you separate the stories of two people who have shared a bed, a home, a life?
How do I talk about me without talking about him?
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
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Oh, Jo, it must be so tough to have whatever this is weighing on you, and not be able to "talk" about it in your "space." I'm certainly glad to hear that neither of you are in any mortal danger, but I know there are things that are every bit as difficult.
ReplyDeleteI hope that you're taking care of yourself, and please know that we're here for you if/when you're feeling able to share.
(((hugs)))
I'm sorry for this difficult time. I have a rule on my blog that I do not talk about my husband's life on my blog. I'll talk about our interactions together, but I don't really get much into his part of the story. I hope you can work it out.
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You and your husband are in my thoughts and prayers during this difficult time in your life. (((HUGS)))
ReplyDeleteHey Jo, I know what you mean about trying to separate the two and I know that sometimes words just don't work. So just know that we're all here when you can find words, or even if you don't. We're just here, thinking about you and hoping you two are hanging in there and healing how you need to. Hugs for you.
ReplyDeleteI am so so very glad to hear that you are okay, even if you are really not. I was SO worried!
ReplyDeleteIf you need to talk...to someone who doesn't know you, doesn't know Mo, doesn't know you two as a couple, feel free to contact me via my blog. I will do my best to just listen, support you, and be a sounding board if you need one. Whatever you are dealing with--I know from experience that trying to manage hard times all by yourself is not a good idea.
So if you can't write about it here, I hope you can find an impartial person to lean on there. Make sure you are taking care of yourself as you make it through each day.
Love you Jo and we'll be here for you when you need us!
*Sigh* I wish I had the answers for the questions that you ask here and more. I hope and pray that whatever it is, the two of you can work it out together, whether you're able to write about it here or not. ((((HUGS))))
ReplyDeleteI hope everything turns out ok.
ReplyDeleteI came here from the Lushary, where someone linked your blog as one of her favs. I just spent the last little bit reading your archives.
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I wish it were easier - drat those men for becoming so entwined with us anyhow! My only thought is...ask him. Ask him if it's ok if you write some things about him, as long as you don't use his name, in your space. A space you go to get stuff out of your head. Who knows...he might be amenable. (this is of course assuming you haven't already had the discussion)
Share or don't share...its up to you. We care. We are here. And, we will support you no matter what.
ReplyDeleteOh hone, I'm just so sorry. For whatever it is. For everything.
ReplyDeleteOh my. I guess it is better to respect the privacy of the one you love. So, if you are in a doubt, don't.
ReplyDeleteI don't really know what is wrong, but I hope that you guys can work it out and find a way through.
Hoping for solutions!
*ICLW*
Such a difficult line to walk! If you can't find a way to work through this on your blog, I hope that you can figure out a way to work it out in real life.
ReplyDeleteYou have so much support here on your blog. I'm sure you'll find your readers here for you even if you find you can't share as much as you like!
ICLW
You, lady, are invading my brain space. :) I had a thought this morning on this subject, while trying to think of anything else that could help. I had an ah-ha! moment. Password protect the post. You manage to get the information out of your head, but we can't see it unless you want us to and give us the password. You can give the password only to those you know don't know you or Mo and never will, those you trust not to judge you.
ReplyDeleteOf course, not sharing works too. We're here to support you, regardless of what you do (and don't) tell. :) Just trying to come up with a way to help!
I'm so sorry you're going through such a hard time. I hope you are able to find peace soon.
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Jo, I've spent days trying to comment but I really don't have the right words, I hope the days ahead are easier than you imagine them to be, I've been keeping you in my thoughts.
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